My family is going to Japan next Tuesday for a week except me… for now.

I’m not sure whether I should go along.

I want to stay home and study because I will be having my A Levels next year (somewhat like AP and IB), and I haven’t been studying much this year as I dropped out of school for half a year due to some personal problems.

If I do not go on a vacation, I could stay home and study and go for my weekly therapy (maybe two times next week). But if I go on a vacation, my mother said that I could still bring my books along and stay in the hotel room and study on my own. But the thing is that I hate traveling, I have tinnitus I hate the high pressure in the plane and the noise, and my anxiety increases when I am in a foreign country, the unfamiliarity. So does it make sense to study in other country while my family are out? The thing is, if I do not go, my mother would be upset. I, on the other hand, am upset that she doesn’t seem to understand that I have to study.

I am not the type of teenager to likes to have fun and such. I am the introvert, thinking type. I hate going out, shopping and crowds. But I live in a tropical country and it would be nice to go somewhere cold for a while. I also think that my therapist would get angry if I skipped any session next week (I didn’t get to see her this week). I do not know exactly why I feel that way but when I told her that I do not want to go away, she said that she wanted to go. Would she be jealous, angry?

What are your thoughts?

Thank you.

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